"How To Invent Your Encore" Full Length 2017 (BRAND NEW​!​!​!​!​!​!​)

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The tracks were recorded in various locations, rooms, apartments, inside of vehicles & finally culminating
in my studio “(he)Art, Sight & Sound” between the fall of 2013 & the summer of 2017, during the most violent ups & downs of my entire life.

Total running time : 80 minutes.

This record saved my life.

This record is dedicated to the greatest mother that ever lived....
J. Karen (Hall) Goff : 1955-2015

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released July 8, 2017

This record was written, performed, programmed, recorded, engineered, mixed & mastered by: J. Anthony (Tony) Goff.
Multi-Instrumentalist / Vocalist / Programming / Protagonist

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idiedtrying Park Layne, Ohio

idiedtrying. - A mission of creating timeless & compelling music, with a cinematic context & pushing the boundaries of emotion within art.

Sometimes beautiful, often joylessly melancholy but most accurately described as horrific. Forever art-damaged. Complete murdered auditory terrorism. The peak of transient delving, compulsive emotional mutilation.

Uncategorical and terrifyingly cathartic.
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Track Name: "What You Won't Do Is What I Will Do"
Welcome to the watershed....
Thanks for coming, inside a written declaration, a great becoming.
A guttering candle, bobbing & weaving, refusing to resolve.
The great equalizer, in impermanence. A common prayer, at home in turbulence. This is it, knuckled up, where I must move on....
Once upon a time, never comes again. On broad shoulders, big as life, a beast inside, fuck it. I'm gonna live my life.
Once upon a time, never comes again. On broad shoulders, big as life, a beast inside, fuck it. I'm gonna live my life....
She said the show must go on.
Do Something. Move Something. Say Something. Play Something.
Challenge accepted. Meet me on the ground.

You ain't seen nothing yet
I'm not new to this
Been here before
I've swallowed no pride
While I've been away
Becoming....
You want paramount
This is paramount
You want paramount
Here it is....

Is that the best you got?
It isn't good enough.
Is that the best you got?
It isn't good enough.

Real Eyes. Realize.
Allies. All Lies.
Believe. Be Leaving.
Relieve. Reliving.

You ain't seen nothing yet
I'm not new to this
Been here before
I've swallowed no pride
While I've been away
You want paramount
This is paramount
You want paramount
This is it.

Yeah it still ain't over.

Is that the best you got?
It isn't good enough.
Is that the best you got?
You're just not good enough.

There's a prayer that I sing
One that means everything
To quiet the sound that haunts you when you're almost home.

May road rise, may the dark sing. May the air I breathe, be all I need.

May road rise, may the dark sing. May the air I breathe, be all I need.

May road rise, may the dark sing. May the air I breathe, be all I need.

There's a prayer that I sing
One that means everything
To quiet the sound that haunts you when you're almost home....

For every time I struggled
When every night I crumbled
I never killed myself
And I, got back up when
All decks were stacked against me
And if ever I need reminding
I sit all by myself
And I play this song....

What you won't do is what I will do,
And what you can't do, I've already done.

© idiedtrying / I Am What I Am Recordings 2015. All rights Reserved.
Track Name: "Incandescent"
Get with it.

Been told all my life....
"No such thing as coincidence."
Is it a blessing or is it "The Curse?"
I should've known when that light bulb exploded.....

The light is dying,
I AM DISCONNECT.
But I'm gonna grind till....
Till its my damn time & I'm holding on.

RAGE.

I'll never rest my heart.
I've faced the darkness & fought it head on....
And burned as bright as the sun.
A dream to burst into a ball of light.

Still with it.

INCANDESCENT, it's INCANDESCENT.

There's photo albums falling.....
And dreams that need recalling....
But I'm cleaning out those closets
And I am fighting with myself.

"A lifes not dead til it's forgotten...."
SHE WILL NOT BE FORGOTTEN.
Found motion in emotion,
In movement I will heal....

So I move & I improve....
I'm still looking out for answers or are they looking out for me?

© idiedtrying / I Am What I Am Recordings 2015. All rights Reserved.
Track Name: "Glitter Eater"
"I asked for water & she gave me gasoline."
But there is no other, to give me what I need.
It's all the glitter, her glitter that I eat.
And it's like playing catch with knives just to sweep her off her feet.....

I still can feel you, on my teeth
Again I'll wear you, you belong to me.

I'm here....
Drive me crazy....
I'm here....
Ride me crazy....

"I asked for water & she gave me gasoline."
But there is no other, to give me what I need.
It's all the glitter, her glitter that I eat.
And it's like playing catch with knives just to sweep her off her feet.....

"I asked for water & she gave me gasoline."
But there is no other, to give me what I need.
It's all the glitter, her glitter that I eat.
And it's like playing catch with knives just to sweep her off her feet.....

RUN.
Here I come again....
I still can feel you, on my teeth.
Again I'll wear you, you belong to me.
I know you hear me, all I play & say....
So if you need it, I'm just around the way....
Track Name: "The Things We Think & Do Not Say"
The things we think & do not say.
I need someone who won't go away.
I regret all my regrets,
But there's still a bad moon, that lights the inside of my chest.

"A fatherless child thinks all things are possible & nothing is safe," how do we know, we're even alive?

Hopefully when it's over, I'll have made you happier than sad.
Proud of me & even prouder of yourself....
I hope it mattered.
I hope it matters.

There's no good, in the things,
That disappear when you're near.
And there's no good, when all that's left,
Are those things & all that brings.

Truth is I'm fucking scared.
Truth is I'm so alone.
And I feel I don't deserve.
These things I call my own.
Still talking to myself,
When there's no one else around.
Still looking for a reason,
There's not many of em now....

And I don't wanna feel this way anymore.
But there's no way back, I said that I....
Don't wanna feel this way anymore.
You can have it back.

Can't get hit by lightning, if you don't stand out in the rain....
And shoulder the weight.
And if there's no one there, to hear, the tree fall in the forest....
Then burn that forest down,
When all has been said, all has been done.
When all has been bled, all has been done.

Can't get hit by lightning, if you don't stand out in the rain....
And shoulder the weight.
And if there's no one there, to hear, the tree fall in the forest....
Then burn that forest down,
When all has been said, all has been done.
When all has been bled, all has been done.

There's no good, in the things,
That disappear when you're near.
And there's no good, when all that's left,
Are those things & all that brings.

One day you look up and,
You're on the top of the world.
And before you can feel it,
You're ashes in dirt.
Like smoke through a key hole,
You haven't moved very far.
But I AM WHAT I AM....
And I've STILL got my guitar.....

One day you look up and,
You're on the top of the world.
And before you can feel it,
You're ashes in dirt.
Like smoke through a key hole,
You haven't moved very far.
But I AM WHAT I AM....
And I've STILL got my guitar.....

The things we think & do not say.
I need someone who won't go away.
I regret all my regrets,
But there's still a bad moon, that lights the inside of my chest.

Destroy your feelings.

So you can heal.
Track Name: "Playing Pencils"
He said, "Cut your losses, kid. Cuz when you're an old man like me, you can't walk away."

Well now I'm that old man.
Lost count of my scars.
And I wasn't even, supposed to live this long.
I've been broken, sure, but I've never been beaten.
Been cracked in two, but I'm still undefeated.

Trust few.
Fear no one.
Push through.
And never settle down.
Hold fast.
To those dreams.
Die last.
And always live your dash.
Always live your dash.

Another song..... Another Summer.
Some place in this is....
Some where in this is....
I dunno.
I am not a simple man.
Have mercy.
And lay my burdens down.
Have mercy....
And lay, my burdens down....

Cut. Me. Down. I. Grow. Back.

They last forever.

So I cut my losses.
And I learned to fail forward.
But it's true I can't walk away....
Well now I'm that old man.
Lost count of my scars.
And I wasn't even, supposed to live this long.
I've been broken, sure, but I've never been beaten.
Been cracked in two, but I'm still undefeated.

Trust few.
Fear no one.
Push through.
And never settle down.
Hold fast.
To those dreams.
Die last.
And always live your dash.
Always live your dash.

It starts all over again....
Track Name: "BASHER!"
God Damn. All the searching....
I've gone down these old roads & I've covered my distance.
And I covet my distance.
This town, always there for me.
A wellspring of how things used to be.
And I'm staying sharp.
And I'll find glory at all costs.

Charge a gun. Won't run. From a knife. Let's fight.

Eat crow, cause shit don't float.

Basher.
It's nothing new to me
Outlaster.
It's nothing new to me.

God Damn. All the searching....
I've gone down these old roads & I've covered my distance.
And I covet my distance.
This town always there for me.
A wellspring of how things used to be.
And I'm staying sharp.
And I'll....
Oh, Just let the music play....
Track Name: "WayALife"
My Life ....
Until the light has gone, out of my life.
My Way....
When it's done, I'll just shut me off.

So, here we are......
How's this gonna end? When all that's left are songs.
How am I supposed to be? When I still want to believe.
I'd parachute me in, and get hung out on a limb.
No longer live in darkness, but it still lives in me....
You'll know I was here, but you'll never see me leave.
Beauty makes me weak, it puts it's finger on my teeth.
That nervous breakdown, wore me like a suit.
I'm always waiting for the bad news,
I need something to look forward to....

My Life ....
Until the light has gone, out of my life.
My Way....
When it's done, I'll just shut me off.

Feel my, fill my cuts.

It's my Way Of Life....
I've loved. I've lost. My heart is in my art.
It's my Way Of Life....
I've loved. I've lost. My heart is my art.

These "Severed Emotions...."
It's NEVER OVER....
These "Severed Emotions...."
"I AM TWISTED".

There's no where to go, There's nothing to do, And I so wanna leave....
But I'll stay here for now, And play for all the ghosts,
That one day I will be....

......
I ask, in case it's my last.....
That you aim for the future, sharper than your past.
And in case I, am saying goodbye....
When they say "I Died," you tell 'em.... He focused on the "TRY."

There's no where to go, There's nothing to do, And I so wanna leave....
But I'll stay here for now, And play for all the ghosts,
That one day I will be....

And play for all the ghosts,
That one day I will be....

And play for all the ghosts,
That one day I will be.......
Track Name: "How To Invent Your Encore"
I play before a changed man, heartbroken but transformed.
Right here I've cleared you a path....
How to invent your encore.